The 10 oclock Show

My new hat

Whatsup guys? I'm back to post and update you guys on life. Well,I've applied to one college already and I'm very excited! My Senior year is still going great,I almost have all A's with one C :/ but I'm most definitely working on it. The other day I ordered my class ring,my cap and gown,and some senior accessories. Fuck Yeah! Also,my car roy is in the shop :/ hopefully I can start driving him within the next month or two.

Slacker?

Most definitely. I have been slacking on posting here. On the bright side I'm doing decent in my Senior year of high school. :) I just have to make up two tests for my first period and study harder for my other classes. I'm still single and I'm ok with that. I'm going to close off that "field" of my life for a while or until something happens. I'm doing more writing in my notebook but currently procrastinating on finishing an essay for my lit class. :X Don't judge me! It happens to the ebst of us,...sometimes more frequently to me.

a weird dream :/

In this dream I lived in a huge apartment with my aunt,uncle,mom,2 cousins,little brother and me. We ended up in one of the rooms because my brother wanted me to make him a cake. I made an ipod touch cake it was weird but I didn't like it so I destroyed it and was in the process of making a new one. For a reason I don't remember I started getting real angry at my sister(who magically popped up) and my cousin. I started screaming and telling them to," get the fuck out of the room," repeatedly. I started throwing things and raging. I ended up in my uncles room where my mom was watching one of the tv's. His room was like an apartment within an apartment. I went to his bathroom and just hung out around there. My cousin came in and started talking to me,all of a sudden her little sister came in an started saying how she finished cooking the cake and this threw me over the edge. I started yelling at her and again telling her to get the fuck out of the room. Then my cousin started yelling at me and we got into a huge fight I ended up hitting her and she fell and hit her head. I panicked and picked her up looking at her head,she had a bump that looked like a mosquito bite and it was bleeding a little bit. I got scared because as soon as I told her she started having a panic attack and I got my mom who held her and told me she was fine. (she stopped moving after my mom held her) I lost it again because my aunt started yelling at me and in my anger I just said,"fuck this shit,I'm leaving." I ended up moving out and getting my own apartment. The building wasn't even done yet but the room was and I somehow ended up being able to get it. Then I saw my grandma who had a weird obsession over coy fish ( -.- ) I invited my best friend over because we had, had a fight and weren't talking. I was really nervous that she was coming over. Then everyone in my dream I think ended up going to what looked like a fancy sea world. It was in the air...(don't ask). Behind shamu and his friends a concert was going on. It was Joan Jett,Cherrie Currie,Dakota Fanning and Kristen Stewart. (Dakota and Kristen were dressed in their runaways get up.) At the end Dakota and Kristen ended up talking to us about how it felt to be up there. It ended there because my brother woke me up to make pancakes.. :/ I'm soooo confused about this dream,it was so random.

Terrified.

That's how I feel. Only because I'm scared of how people will react. I am a lesbian,not everyone I know is aware of that. My mom,3 cousins,a few of my friends and my ex girlfriends. I haven't told my dad,my 2 sisters,little brother,the rest of my family and my other friends. I really want to tell my sisters and I'm going to later on today. I don't care what they say I just need to get it off my chest. So I'm letting you all know now. I like girls. I like girls, oh and just in case you missed it I like girls. :)

Who doesn't know Joan mothafucking Jett?!

- the kiidd.

Rant

This happens to be the most frequent question I get asked. It's a very good and valid question,but I do tire of being asked this. Why am I single you ask?

One reason is mainly because I choose to be. By choice I am single. Every-time I try to give my all to a girl,they either want nothing or expect more then I can give. Now,I know I'm not the best person out there,but dammit I expect you to appreciate what I do for you. I know that what I look for and what I get in a person, are so far apart that they would be considered long distance cousins.

I need and want an intelligent,funny,and caring person in my life. It's what I crave. I always end up with a semi-educated,ignorant,and selfish person. At first they appear to be what I so desperately crave,but they show their true colors about 2 months in and by then I'm a bit too selfish.

I hope that they will change,knowing deep down they won't but I always give them the benefit of the doubt. By the 4-5 month I'm worn down and don't know what I should do. 6-7 months I hate the relationship,why do I let things get like this? Purely on selfish desire...maybe,and I don't mean in a sexual way. By the time I break it off,or they do I want nothing to do with any one for a while. It happens every single time.

This is my rant if you will and I stick by what I say.

Does this happen to you? What do you do and how do you end up handling it?

Lazarus

I'm sitting here in my room listening to Travis McCoy's album,Lazarus. Album is dope as fuck! In all honesty I don't know why people are sleeping on him. His CD is so diverse,I don't think I've heard a album quite like this in a while aside From B.O.B's cd and Drake's of course. If you haven't checked it oout,Do so NOW!! It's amazing,I enjoyed/and still enjoy every song.

Ranting

I've been thinking lately about what I want out of life besides the regular stuff like a good job,house,and family. Oh and snakebites but that is besides the point. I think I need to just go for things instead if just saying,"oh,there's always next time, " when in fact there may never be a next time. I'm not entirely sure if that makes sense but I needed to vent a little. Next post will come sooner and be about how "well" my mom took me asking for snakebites. -_-

- the kiidd.

Betty White + SNL. What more could I ask for?

One of my favorite skit's

Because it only takes one live show....

PARAMORE. That one band alone is enough to make my day. I can't believe I'm going to say this but,Drake is no longer the artist I listen to, to cool off. It is now paramore,joan jett,and the runaways. I think I've gotten back into my rock phase,almost. This genre seems to be more prevalent with me now. Don't hold me to it though because It's just those three main groups I listen to including the friday night boys.

Now the reason I am totally and completely infatuated with them is because have any of you guys ever heard Hayley Williams sing live? Yeah,exactly,she's amazing live.

It's sad really,I'm obsessed with Paramore now,I mean I always liked since I first heard them but now I just recently got back into them. Paramore is Love! :)

Coming into myself

As mentioned in the title,I have noticed more and more with myself that not only am I growing more mature,but more into a person I love. I am more comfortable with who I am as a person. My style is slowly becoming my own and I can only say I absolutely adore this feeling. Music is better everyday,words start blending together and forming ones I may not have used in the past. I learn more and more about myself each day and I hope it never stops. I'm not completely sure how to describe this feeling of self serenity(?) Sure I have my moments and I'm completely bitchy but what teenager isn't?

Allow me to share a few of my memorable experiences with you. These past few weeks have been crazy to say the least. Memorable,but crazy. I have enjoyed my time,recently I was able to go with one of my best friends to go see the movie The Runaways. I loved it! I mean I am a fan of their music but I guess this movie just solidified it. I can not wait until it comes out!

Next,we have The birth of my niece,she is a blessing to the family. I was able to spend a weekend with my older sister,brother-in-law and of course my little niece. It was by far one of the best experiences for me. She is such a cute baby!

Another issue at hand is my ex -___- but this will be a post for next time,only because there is so much I have to put into it to try and convey to you all how I really feel about this gargantuan issue.

For now I would like to thank you for wasting what I am sure is your very valuable time to stop by and check my blog.

Sitting in the dark

I personally love it,Do you?

There's just something so soothing and relaxing about it for me.
I feel that when you're in the dark,there is nothing to put you down. It's calming to know nothing will judge you there. Now, I'm talking about being in a dark room,you know with the lights off,not the "dark" pits of your soul,hell,heart,etc,..
I love the feeling that washes over me when I can just say and do what I want. :)

It's a short post and considering how late it is,I'm surprised I was able to mush all this out. Maybe some other time I will post a longer,more in depth rant on this,but for now I leave it at this.

Kristen Stewart<3

Nothin' on you - B.o.B

This song is simply my isht!!

I adore this song Wavin' Flag

If for some reason it wont let you play the actual video (-_-) here is a link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nB7L1BIDELc


Artists in order they appear:

K’naan
Nelly Furtado
Avril Lavigne
Sam Roberts
Pierre Bouvier (Simple Plan)
Tyler Connolly (Theory Of A Deadman)
Kardinal Offishall
Jully Black
Josh Ramsay (Marianas Trench)
Jay Malinowski (Bedouin Soundclash)
Chin Injeti
Jacob Hoggard (Hedley)
Red 1 (Rascalz)
LIGHTS
Deryck Whibley (Sum 41)
Serena Ryder
Emily Haines (Metric)
James Shaw (Metric)
Hawksley Workman
Drake
Ima
Elisapie Isaac
Pierre Lapointe
Esthero
Corb Lund
Fefe Dobson
Jim Creeggan (Barenaked Ladies)
Tom Cochrane
Kevin Parent
Lamar Ashe
Colin James
Nikki Yanofsky
Suzie McNeil
Stephan Moccio
Aoin Clarke
Kathleen Edwards
Jim Cuddy (Blue Rodeo)
Shiloh
Stacey McKitrick
Jessie Farrell
Colin MacDonald
Justin Nozuka
Hayley Sales
Matt Mays
City & Colour
Arkells
Pat Kordyback (Stereos)
Dave Faber (Faber Drive)
Brandon Lehti (The Latency)
The Canadian Tenors
Justin Bieber
Torquil Campbell (Stars)
Broken Social Scene

proper grammar = attractive

Now I'm not going to front I used too type a certain way on the Internet. You know like this : yooo wut we gettn intew tuhdayy famz,yuhh downn or whut. I then realized that I not only probably looked like a loser but I felt like one. It's not cute to type like your fingers are mentally ill. Yeah I understand everyone makes mistakes but not when it's so prominently obvious you couldn't give a rip if anything is spelled correctly. I for one love when proper grammar is used. To put it bluntly, you + proper grammar = turn on *insert chuckle*

Gave me chills,Just absolutely awesome

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty.
He asks one of his new students to stand and.....

Prof: So you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Prof : Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student : Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him.
Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?
(Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student : No.
Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From...God....
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
(Student does not answer.)
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir.
Prof: So, who created them?
(Student has no answer.)
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student: No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold . Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat . We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy . Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it .(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if
you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make
darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
font color="Darkred">Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it.
Now tell me, Professor.Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher? (The class is in uproar.)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain,sir.
With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it sir.... The link between man & god is FAITH . That is all that keeps things moving & alive.

This is a true story, and the

student was none other than.........
APJ Abdul Kalam , the former president of India .

Happy Valentine's Day!

As we all know today is Valentines day. For many this means spending a day with your significant other,basking in the love you both have for each other. Even though I'm single this time for V-Day I still will celebrate my love for friends and family.

I would like to share with you though the murky history as I know it of valentines day. Today, in the AD years,(490's maybe), the Roman emperor decreed that marriages were illegal. They weakened soldiers because of bonds made between a man an his wife and/or family. There was rumored to be a priest who still married young couples who were in love. His name was valentine. The emperor found out and sent him to jail. Rumor also has it that valentine fell in love with a young lady and before valentine was sentenced to be beheaded,he wrote her a letter. In this letter he signed it "from your valentine". After his death years later of course he was made a saint.

Creepy or Hopelessly Romantic?

Either way, my opinions aside I would like to wish everyone,whether I know you personally or not, a very happy Valentines Day! <3









- the kiidd.

Thoughts on a rainy day

Now as I lay here in my bed,just came home from school,I have come to ponder this last week. I know I can motivate myself to do well in school. All I needed was to foot myself in the caboose if you catch my drift ;P haha. This past week i've completed all my chores,homework,studied,and taken care of any other tasks,while still having ample leisure time. I consider this a completed year goal,hopefully I can stay on task like this and finish thi school year out stronger then ever. I even started a more in depth college/scholarship search. Anyways I started another blog with one of my best friends. Check it out: pandoraandnyx.blogspot.com

Also follow me on Twitter: @KiiddKnowledge

Or add the myspace (yes I still use it): myspace.com/aykiiddknowledge


- the kiidd.

Belo horizonte

Yeaaaah! It's about that time were I'll give my quick two cents on what I liked and didn't like. Might post a more substantial post and in depth rundown of this mixtape later on though. Anywhores what i liked was mainly that hyro knows his shit. Always creating hits and keeping it real. What I didn't like was that he didn't include the song bboy stance in the download lol. Any true fan knows what song I'm talking bout. That's all I have for now since I'm mobile posting and literally freezing my ass off :X

- the kiidd.

Favorite Reggaeton Song

I can sing this song all day

One of my favorite songs.

I don't care what anybody else says or thinks,this is my shit!! lol

Belo horizonte [mixtape] Hyro Da Hero

Word, so I've had this mixtape downloaded for about a good month. I love it! Hyro really knows what he wants when perfecting his sound and releasing GOOD music. He is a fusion of rock and rap. Now I know you must be thinking "oh word? Jay-Z and Wayne did that" yeah well Hyro does it better. Trust me, and I understand you may not like it but Hyro gets it in. Download it,Listen to it, Like it. (hopefully) Go to hyrodahero.com to download it,let me know how you like it.


- the kiidd.

Fly Life - [ T-Rich ]

Right now I'm bumpin that mixtape, as an artist I thought he would suck but he's pretty tight; I mean considering he's another dude doing the whole actor turned rapper lifestyle *drake* haaha. Anyways most might know him as lil homie off of everybody hates chris,he's Chris's little brother.


- the kiidd.

Accent?

Second post today? I guess frequent posts are officially a go, although I'll try my best to keep the verbal spewings and whatnot to a minimum. Anywhores the point of this post is simply about a certain topi that is brought up at least once a day by friends or people who hear me talk. Apparently when I get mad or excited my "New York" accent comes out. I'm not certain if this is true though,lol. I have had people tell me though cause I either get teased about it or asked to repeat whatever I said. Usually the latter,I don't mind but sometimes it's a little tiresome. Maybe one day some of you guys can hear this "accent" of mine.

- the kiidd.

First mobile post

Ok well as you can see from the title this is my first mobile post. Nothing too big but it's a start to hopefully more frequent blog posts on my everyday life :)
That's all for now I guess.




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Conversation with my sister

Any-whores,my sister,brother in-law and I are in the sala. For some reason we were on the topic of teenage pregnancy,and my sister mentions how she had been watching the show for mad long,and streetz my bro in-law was like well how long would that be?? Nonchalantly she states for about a year. We laugh and he goes " oh it all makes sense you're pregnant now from watching this show. It plants ideas in young girl's heads." My sister states " nahh,we didn't have cable" and of course I couldn't leave that alone and I go " ahaha That's why you got pregnant,no cable"

Always A Reason

There's usually a reason behind why people take pictures. You were bored,family get together,birthday,you know special occasions. The reason I took this one? simple,it was for a friend, but I have been procrastinating (nothing new) and I haven't sent it to her yet. Any-whores, we had this on going joke that if we went a day without seeing one another,then we wouldn't sleep or we would have problems sleeping that night. Ever since she said this we have noticed that on days where one is missing,or we don't see each other,sure enough that night,we will have a bad night's rest. Personally I think it's all psychological but it's OK. I enjoy knowing that I'm the reason someone gets to sleep well at night. :D

First post of a new year.

Well what can I say? 2009 was at best a very memorable year,and at worst very trouble ridden. I went through a lot,but I'm still standing. I can say for what it's worth I have become a lot stronger emotionally,mentally, and yes,a bit physically too. The beginning of 2010 has indeed been a good one,one of the best so far. I spent the last day of 2009 and the first day of 2010 with the company of people I adore. Shout outs to them for making my life enjoyable. Even though I'm still recovering as we enter the new year I could not be happier. Of course there will be days when I feel I can't move forward,but I know I can continue to move forward. Thanks to everyone who has and who will be there for me when I need you most. Love always - Kiidd.